What I am about

I doubt people will read this, or even find it. I view it at this point as a sort of internet journal, a diary of sorts to just exhale words into. I hope to upkeep it with some measure of regularity, but time will tell that tale. I guess I will explain who I am, just in case anyone happens upon this and feels like reading for God knows why. I'm a 25 year old married homeowner. Sounds like I am doing pretty good right? I am, overall. the problem is that I am starting to flounder. Debt is building due to a change of jobs. Hey, thats a pretty decent story, so I guess I will tell it first.

September 8th is my wife's birthday. September 8th 2012 I was told the Mattress store I manage was closing. I would later learn that half the stores in the company were shutting down. I was rather upset. September 10th 2012 I got a call at work. The owner of a different mattress company had been into my store and liked how I acted and all that jazz. He asked me how I liked my job. I had an interview on my next day off, and a second the Sunday after that, September 16th. I got the job Monday the 17th. I started Monday the 24th. Seamless transition. Except for one little crease. A $600 less a month crease.

So yeah, I am a lot better off than I COULD have been, but still seem to be in a sinking ship. My wife is fighting valiantly to work out debt. Balance transferring credit cards and deferring payments to lessen the interest paid so we can lower our debt to survivable levels. We got rid of cable, lessened our phone plans to smaller caps, and cancelled our gym memberships. Never used the gym memberships anyway.

Overall? I'm happy. Pretty damn happy really. I am stressed. I am strained. My new job is harder, more is expected of me and I get paid less. But I am pretty damn happy. I am married to the best friend I have ever had, who happens to be the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I have a very nice house, especially for being only 25. I am employed. I have an adorable little dog who loves me. I have loving parents and four younger brothers who are some of the best friends I could have asked for.

Do I wish life was different sometimes? In ways, yes. If there was a way to erase all my debt, give me a dream job and all that, would I do it? Depends on the details. If it cost me that wife, or dog, or brothers, or parents? Never. If not, in a heartbeat. And that is what it boils down to.

My heart still beats.

I am still alive.

I am happy.